I noticed that I haven’t posted anything in a little bit. And by that maybe I just mean a day. But whatever it’s still a day when I had gotten back into regularly posting. Then I realized why… it’s because of this damn redesign.
I’m getting way too much flack for this. It’s my design. My website. Yesterday I heard, “That’s lame with a capital L.” Wow. That sucked hard. Especially because it takes hours to come up with a design for me. Would someone say that to an artist who spent time on a sculpture? I think not. Then I would hear things look gay this way or that way, blah blah blah. Listen- the reason I won’t be using the design you see here is because it’s not *my work*. I didn’t design crap of this. So how does a *web designer* have any respect if his own homepage isn’t by him? Exactly.
But right now I can’t even look at my site or the ‘redesign’ of it. I go through the Photoshop file and I keep hearing voices of people who didn’t like this aspect or that aspect and I get frustrated. Now I can’t even see colors clearly– not literally– just as in, I keep mixing weird-ass colors like green and purple. (Anyone want a Joker-style version? Lemme know. Actually you know what, don’t. I’m done with feedback.)
Maybe I’m just irritated over the past couple of….days… weeks… months. India’s taking a toll on me. I’m ready to leave. Permanently. Plus today I’ll find out (in about 3-4 hours) if I have typhoid or malaria or some other god-forsaken 3rd World disease. Disease, stress, and now the one thing I do at home with which I found respite and recreation- my own website/web design- I can’t do because I’m too self-conscious. Wow.
Things are goin’ great around here.